Just the little things

Well...I just realised how small things made such a difference so that you feel better about yourself...

Just a smile, a wave or a message...

I realised perhaps I was neglecting these things...not really thinking about the significance but to someone who desperately needs some reassurance, these things od make such a difference.

I know I owe other people shit-loads of apologies, I mean, I think I over-think it in my mind and it leads to misunderstandings. People won't intentionally do things that are unkind...right?

But how to start..that's really the hard part and strangely if you apologise, it makes you seem like the wrong one when you're technically not...but what if you just want to say 'I'm over this, I was over this ages ago and I hate how this has changed how we think about each other but I don't care about it anymore if it's going to ruin things. I don't care who's to blame, who's right or wrong.'

See that's really different to an 'I'm sorry' because that makes it sound like you are in the wrong.

Maybe the fact that I'm already concerned appearing to be in the 'wrong' shows that I'm not ready to apologise...but these are the technical things

And it's not even to the degree of whether someone's right or wrong. Everyone would have been wrong or right at one stage, it just depends on who was 'more' wrong or 'more' right and for how long....so yeah, I'm not saying I was RIGHT...

*sigh*

There I go again............